I am a lil shack in the wake of a storm

Trying Times
If there was ever a time to truly truly believe that "you'll never know what tomorrow may bring," the time is NOW. I was watching the news with my roomies and a couple of friends last nite when they were talking about how it will be inevitable to avoid another terrorist attack, even one of catastrophic proportions, as if the first attack wasn't catastrophic enough. What on earth could catastrophic proportions mean? It's a scary time, and we gotta live in the reality of this new era...but I refuse to live in fear...just live on and think about TODAY....

Some news that I just can't seem to shake. I was just informed this morning that I am being forced to cut my hours in half...due to budgeting and things like that...F-U-C-K. I don't know what I'm gonna do...I was barely getting by as it was...now what? But I know I just have to let it go...after Bible study last night, we were talking about how things are all part of God's bigger plan. So I need to see the positive sides of this event...it'll give me time to look for a better job, some of that "JAYTIME" that I've been wanting so bad lately. Well, there's something else in store, I know it...I just gotta stop dwelling on it and not letting those stupid thoughts into my head. I got by before I had this job, and I will get by again....right? So I pray for the strength to accept those things which I cannot change...

I've smoked several times this week...I'm getting weak, I'm giving in to temptation. Argh...when it rains, it pours...so I gotta get an Umbrella. I am strong enough to handle not smoking...I just don't know why I've been wanting to so much lately. Maybe it's cuz it's just a reaction...that's what I always did when I got frustrated, or was tired, worried, whatever...so in light of seizing the day and really just making the best out of my life...I will put up a stronger effort to not give in to my vices...

Okay, obviously, I'm doing this to avoid something...work...better get back to it...